The Morning and the Evening Star.

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Thu, 03 May 2012 02:30:35 +0200

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Thu, 03 May 2012 02:26:36 +0200

Also, tomorrow I am officially putting uni on hold for the time being.

Thu, 03 May 2012 01:46:00 +0200

Computer sciences, that is. And, I would’ve done it last week already, but the Dean wasn’t there, and I have to sort out everything re: scholarship with her first.

That is, fingers crossed she doesn’t tell me I have to pay them back like 10,000 pounds, or something. Which I technically shouldn’t, as it wasn’t me who got that money in the first place; they got it, just from somebody else instead of me, plus, I’ll still be officially enrolled and everything.

Only taking a year (for starters) off to explore a job opportunity, which isn’t unheard of even in our educational system, so I’m not doing anything ~wrong. (Despite my grandparents still insisting so, yet, thank God, not as much as they used to.)

I’m finally following my dream full-on, and now, thinking back, I realise that writing and film was the first and only thing I always really wanted to do.

Here’s to getting back on track.

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Thu, 03 May 2012 01:45:00 +0200

So, I got rid of 7 kgs in the past month.

Thu, 03 May 2012 01:17:00 +0200

And the best part is, I eat everything I did before. Including chocolate, ice cream, cake, and all kinds of sweets. I just don’t eat as much, which is not a problem as I don’t have the need to, either.

I exercise though, about 4 hours every day (2 hours of active training + 2 hours on the machines), which I started doing not to lose weight, but for the job I’m preparing for, and now I’m positively hooked! I can’t wait to start swim practice, and weapons training… ~~Now, why did that sound like I’m preparing for the Hunger Games?~~

Most importantly, I feel great: nothing ever hurts anymore, and for the first time in forever I actually feel like I’m in my body, and not in some huge spacesuit you can’t really make coordinated moves in. (Not that I was ever actually huge; just size 6/8, but now it looks like I’ll be size 2/4 in no time, and without really trying.)

However, I used to, well, not hate my body, but feel awkward in it for a long time, and now I’m loving it, yet not (just) because of how I look, but because of how I feel. Accomplished. Full of life. Healthy. Happy.

Which is why I’m starting to see my reflection showing who I am inside as well.

Happy girls truly are the prettiest.

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Wed, 02 May 2012 19:42:06 +0200

i accidentally messed up my life how do i start a new account

Wed, 02 May 2012 19:41:42 +0200

i accidentally messed up my life how do i start a new account

Dear computer, I left you off for almost 24 hours. So, please stop going into “sleep...

Wed, 02 May 2012 19:14:53 +0200

Dear computer,

I left you off for almost 24 hours.

So, please stop going into “sleep mode” every 2-10 minutes.

You can sleep when I do.

~~Which is never.~~

Love, me.

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Wed, 02 May 2012 18:31:18 +0200

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Tue, 01 May 2012 18:06:00 +0200

Ok, can I go back to London now, please? One week here is more than enough. Then again, I’ve...

Tue, 01 May 2012 17:56:00 +0200

Ok, can I go back to London now, please?

One week here is more than enough.

Then again, I’ve had (and still do!) so much to do re: job opportunity that I didn’t even notice the week pass by. So, it’s not like I can afford going somewhere, when I literally don’t have time to sit down for half an hour.

Also, very probably going to New York in July. (eeek!)

So, I shoud have everything done by then.

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Wed, 18 Apr 2012 15:08:00 +0200

Guess I'll sleeping on the streets for the next 4 days in London.

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 15:05:46 +0200

‘Cause I just learned last night that the hostel I made reservations with 10 days ago had in the meantime sold my room. FML.

So, I’ve been looking for an alternative option ever since then, but there are no more available rooms anywhere for under 800 pounds—the kind of money I simply don’t have—, except maybe one to share with 11 strangers, yet after all that had happened last winter, I’m just not ready for that.

And now, my bus for Zadar is leaving in an hour, and I’m not even sure I can catch the plane with that one, but it’s the only one, so yeah.

Hopefully, I’ll get to London by midnight, but where am I supposed to go after that?!

(The thing is, it’s not just Avengers, and adventures, and fun stuff I’m going for; I have to sort out something for a job opportunity, and it can’t wait.)

Just printed my boarding passes, so these should be accurate.

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 14:33:13 +0200

Just printed my boarding passes, so these should be accurate.

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Wed, 18 Apr 2012 14:22:39 +0200

Also, tomorrow today, I’m getting my Avengers premiere tickets! assfjshdlajsldk!!! (Also, look...

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 03:51:48 +0200

Also, ~~tomorrow~~ today, I’m getting my Avengers premiere tickets! assfjshdlajsldk!!!

(Also, look at me, doing stuff on time like a ~responsible adult.)

In which Glacies remembers:

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 03:42:02 +0200

Last Easter was April 24th (my luck day!)…

…and that morning I made a decision, and took a plane to London to catch a gig that afternoon, and spent the night in this crazy airport hotel that looked like something out of StarTrek (which is why I booked it), and it was the last time I remember being truly happy, and excited, and carefree—not as perfectly as I was in autumn 2010, but the closest to that I guess—, and though I’m glad for everything I’ve learned since then, and all the stuff re: writing I’ve done, I miss those days so much.

Aaand, I’m just really looking forward to the 19th, and the new adventures, and living my life to the fullest again, and most of all, just being blissfully happy for a change.

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Sun, 08 Apr 2012 16:18:00 +0200

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Sun, 08 Apr 2012 16:17:00 +0200

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